2 months post op

Nov 21st I had multiple sinus tracks removed from my bottom and my bottom sewn shut, this is the 2nd attempt of trying to heal my bottom after a 22 year battle with these tracks. Just found out yesturday the surgery didn’t work again. I’m not quite sure how to feel about this. I spent 16 days this time in hospital, I just want this part of my life behind me, no pun intended. I’m off work, raising a little girl on my own, just applied for longterm disability, I pray I get it, sometimes I feel why, this disease has been from day 1, 41 years of surgeries, hospital stays, drs, nurses, needles, healing, scars, medications, and now I feel I’m back at square 1, I’m trying to stay positive, take it 1 day at a time, BUT, it’s hard, sometimes you feel your all alone, my family is great but they have their own lives.